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Frustration to the Nth Degree
I'm in a mood most foul today.
It's not like it was a horrible day. I got up about 8am and fed my animals. Ate a couple of small bowls of cereal, and then promptly went back to bed. Don't remember whether or not I had the headache then but it seems like I've had a headache and body soreness the rest of the day. I tried to get some things done. Things I normally think are fun. I was paid so I wanted to buy the rest of the clothes I needed for the AZ trip later this month. I found no pleasure in shopping today. I did find a shirt for his parent's party, bought some socks and underwear, and another pair of pretty cool jeans- all without spending a lot. But I was tired of shopping after the first stop.
Then AZ called me later and I was in such a foul mood, everything he said irritated me. It doesn't help that as the time grows closer to go, I'm thinking this is going to be the last trip I make out there. I have a feeling that I need to move on from him. That nothing serious is ever going to come of us. Don't get me wrong, I care about him a lot and still like being around him when I'm there, but I can't help but feel used- although I've allowed all of it to happen- so it's not him. I'm not getting any younger, and I want to be serious about someone that can be serious about me. I just don't think AZ has it in him to be serious....maybe at all.
In an attempt to get off the foulness of this subject...
I went to a pet rat event yesterday at another shelter. I left work early to do it. It was unfortunately not really worth it. If I were not already a rat person, it would have hardly put someone on to it. They had some adoptable ratties there- which is great- though they all looked like babies. I think that's strange because it was a rat rescue that was there.....where were the adult rescues for adoption??? There was a presentation that put me over the edge. A respected lady in rat circles was there to put on the presentation- but you know how when somebody is kind of "geeky" about a subject they seem to lack people skills? Or public speaking skills? She was there to show you how to train your rats how to do tricks. And then she put on a rat costume show. It was awful. I was sooo embarrassed for her. It probably wouldn't have convinced someone to look into a pet rat if they were curious. The good part? Well I did get "The Rat Health Guide" which is very important- has a lot of great information (written by the same lady who did the presentation!!) and purchased a rubber stamp with a rattie on it.
I took an Aleve and I'm still not feeling well.....
I have to go to the ghetto clinic tomorrow and get my birth control shot. Not something I look forward to, but whatever. I'm going to drive Wicked down there to get him some exercise. I have other errands I need to run so I hope I'm in better spirits.
It's supposed to be pretty cool here. You know, you'd think with all the talking I do about shopping that I'd have this amazing endless wardrobe right? You'd be wrong. Most everything I own it seems I would barely wear to work. I really need to just toss the things I keep hanging on to so that I know what is actually wearable. It comes with the territory when you buy stuff from Ross that's one of the disadvantages- it is cheap because some of it is cheaply made and easily deteriorates. I find that mostly with the tops I buy. I do wear them to death though.
I trudge on...
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